Diary of blossom menezeshttp://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/Diary of blossom menezesen-us]]>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:58:10 +0530http://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/blogs/2006/02/06/Untitled.htmlTorn piecesTorn pieces floating in the air.

Blocking my vision.

Refusing to settle down with the dust that sets the pace.

A million of them running in hundred different timezones.

Taking the pleasure in the ride to a place that never arrives.

A peace that's never silent.

A journey that never ends,

Setting the pace for a rythmatic chaos intrinsic to its movement.

Now i become the torn piece.

I know not where i go,

I have to keep moving through the chaos,

But the road never ends.

And so does my journey.

I can't see ahead nor where i came from.

The chaos brings the music.

I become part of it.

Now i am the chaos.

And i dont want to settle .

For time doesnt exist for those whose journey never ends.

I become time and i last forever.


]]>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:49:17 +0530http://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/blogs/2006/02/06/Torn.htmlForgotten Memories Can i enter your thoughts, for i've left my traces all along the space you travel,
How far can you run from me, for i'm in every step you take?
You'll find me swaying in the breeze on the road of the dairy farm,
In the boat that now swims alone, just the way you left it years back,
On the lonely road, as you watch hands meet creating yet another history,
Am watching you from the vacant chair that once didnt know what loneliness was,
I stare into you as you brush me aside as if we never met before,
How long do you think you can treat me like a stranger?
You're sitting right where you killed me in cold blood,
Do you think ill let you live ever again?"
- a monolgue by Forgotten Memories

]]>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:48:32 +0530http://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/blogs/2006/02/06/Forgotten.htmlThe invisible soulWhat does it feel like?
To be there yet not be there
To be seen yet not be seen
To be touched yet not be touched
Floating away in a lonely existence
Moving around in an invisible cloak
On the wheels of a transparent body
That knocks not the doors of the one you love
Let me leave my secure hands of that pole in the train
And fly away with the wind that makes me feel alive
Let the body embrace the surface that kills but tells me i am alive
yes i am alive, in my death i am alive
Let me drink till i sleep away peacefully
Sleep never to wake up again
yes i am alive, in my death i am alive
Let the blood leave my veins while i see it flow like a gushing river
Draining me till i feel the pangs in my head
yes i am alive, in my death i am alive
]]>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:47:25 +0530http://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/blogs/2006/02/06/The-invisible.htmlMy throat is up in flames....

My throat is up in flames

while my mind lies scattered somewhere in the ashes,

Thoughts racing at the speed of light,

moving backwards through burnt memories,

Changing lanes,

Zooming past some, while catching hold of some other precious moments,

Racing in the reverse gear lest time may move too quickly,

Changing gears to take stock of highly low and lowly high timespots.

Accelerate........through the distant memories, the unanswered questions, the unspoken words, the cold silence.

No more breaks on the walk down memory lane......

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]]>Thu, 19 Jan 2006 18:47:18 +0530http://imeemyself.rediffiland.com/blogs/2006/01/19/umpteen-cigarattes-one-accident-and-a-failed.html2005-2006What did you do in 2005 that you've never done before?

Allowed myself to flow with the tide..not bothering about the rocks and the wind and the heights.


Did anyone close to you die? Yes. My spontaneity and irrational self

What you would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?

love


What date from 2005 will remain etched in your memory and why? February 4th. It was the day a part of me died.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Learning to survive and how


What was your biggest failure?

The failure to look under the cover of the book I loved

On a material level what was the best thing you bought in 2005?

A toy that shocked many.literally


Where did most of your money go? Am still tracing it


What song will always remind you of 2005? Phuloon ke rang se, dil ki kalam se, tujh ko likhi roz..


Compared to this time last year are you happier or sadder? Happier


Older or Wiser? Older of course. Hopefully wiser

Richer or Poorer? Richer and poorer.

Financially poorer and mentally richer..

What do you wish you'd done more of? Using my talents
What do you wish you'd done less of? Trusting

What was your favorite TV program of 2005? The great Indian laughter challenge


Who pissed you off in 2005? I me myself


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